Assemble once more

that old forgotten soul

gather those roots,

 they extend, tens of meters underground.

Don’t search the surface,

search that depth,

 hidden for years

you can’t understand….

Deprived to find a meaning,

 barely seen light

 but highly experienced treason.

Open your arms

show them compassion,

with a little luck

they might forgive you.

October and Leaves that fall

Weather has changed, everything is new,

the only things remaining are my feelings for you.

Maybe you left,

wounding my soul…

A part of you remains at my hearts door,

beating a rhythm  just I can understand,

one violin, one sad story at the end.

When those broken sounds,

and your catching fragrance merge

making a poem, of the oblivion

layered in bittersweet sensations.

When the violins stop and that poem is not written,

life ends a cycle

and takes me with him.

Never shall I trust myself,

no music is playing… condemned to silence,

a thousand violins could play

I could never hear them.

Leaves that fall

Leaves that fall…

they could be compared to us all,

lost each other in the chaos that followed.

Without one and another they are not the same,

they are falling to the ground,

and that’s the only thing

they have in common.

Misery soon follows,

destiny plays the cards right

always wins, taking us out.

We are soldiers of luck

on a field scattered with landmines,

blindfolded and uselessly carrying  big guns.

We had our orders,

we gone rogue that’s fine,

let me hug you, hold your hand

and take a couple of steps…

I never say goodbye

not even at the end.

Divers

White dove

September days

We can order chinese ,

you could paint and I could make funny faces.

At 2 am we’d make prank calls

than laugh because one guy thought

that he been called by a mouse.

Or just stay up late

watching low budget films.

and still having a great time.

Than go outside in the middle of the night,

scream and shout than sit down.

Holding our hands

and just stare at the stars,

thanking The Lord

that He brought us together,

and making us the

Happiest couple.

Just me and you,

the dog and a large phone bill,

I am telling you …I love you from the bottom of my heart

and that’s all I want,

and if you could love me to…

 I’ll be happy… 

Parts of my truth

" I wanted to believe that I had a chance,this way I never stopped loving you" quote Demeter Sz.
" I miss you even do we never met" quote Demeter Sz.
" War is when human engineering ,meets human conscience" quote Demeter Sz.
  

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Just some thoughts

Strictly known only by the two of us,

trying to speak you don’t let me

guide me to the truth,

if I don’t listen drag me in front of it

with your words explain that

I am not worth a chance, change me to become the opposite.

Years of concealing in my heart deepest place,

only I  know how much you mean to me,

but you cease to believe in me.

It happened in plain site

how can I resist? I know,I know I can’t touch

I just want to talk…

Or is it that to much?...I can’t give up

you are my goal, decades could pass

I will be waiting for an answer,

do whatever just to prove I am better

because of you.

Made it in twent

Expected me to give up easily

believing it will reduce the conflict between us,

but the issue I have, my words do not hurt,

all I said was something innocent spontaneous.

Even if you’d give a part of me away

I will let you without any delay,

I just want to look at your moves

there is nothing to improve....

Your eyes do not cease to follow me,

think I did…pretty much what you asked me.

As I imagine

As I imagine

As I imagine you

a flawless shape an orchid among humans,

my shoulders carry a guilt, my love,

bitter sweet is my thrill seeking heart.

But my heart is untouched

dust covers it,

the key to unlock it…

a song sang by a thousand crickets,

…………..

it reminds me of a dawn in august.

Is it my fault… if I dare to dream?

wanting that piece,

you are the one completing me.

Dreamt of a human amongst human beings

I hope you can love,

Let’s see to that,that will never be apart

Truly revealed

Truly revealed

…and you don’t answer

still trying to reach you,

my hopes slowly fade away in august…

Witnessing your liberation

free emotional boundaries,

if life opens you a door or a window

you choose to choke the past.

Forget about that foolish dreamer.

forget about that tired seeker,

run away now hide from the emission

transmitted by a gentle whisper.

Evolving you felt the reason to leave

because it’s easier this way I know.

we met we talked in the past

borders of a civilized world tease you…?

Foreign language, different color.

I saw you grown

not anymore that sweet vulnerable girl,

think your even? ignore me and step sideways

let me hit the wall.

Nevermore I shall go beyond my fear

I have lost you.

Time can change, if you lack individuality

lack that courage to enjoy an open talk,

right next to a boy

who cares about you more

by the day.

Black glasses close the direct contact,

dressed in white

you feel innocent or just trying to be?

You trusted me ,still do I presume

offer me that window and I will give you air,

and release  that blockage

To 0 to infinity

Make my heart whole again

come to me hold my hand.

Walk 12 passes tell me once,

tell a thousand times,

I want to hear it from you sweetheart.

I want to feel your presence

every moment of my life

Take breakfast with you

wishing  u good morning.

you mean the whole world to me

to a to z, to 0 to infinity.

I want you near me

think about the great times will have.

It’s a pleasure I admire you,

you got something noble, special

and I really love you.

Hundred miles plus -minus 2,

I stare at the moon I stare at you,

searching for those eyes

I get sidetracked,it’s never easy for my,

you deserve better than that.

I give you all that I have

and a little more,

I give you my heart, my soul.

Please don’t walk all over it.

Without you I am in cardiac arrest

perform CPR or else I’m dead.

Volume: ,,She”

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Volume: ,,She”

Years 08”-10” The Search

Never knowing what is going to happen, it always stalks you finding you, you never know when is going to happen, in 08” it happened.

         I thought it was a dream, I thought that she was real…

I went through hell and back,through  fire, humiliation and total chaos, on uncharted grounds I found myself carrying a guilt….I wanted her, wanted her love, her sweet voice telling me great words…

         It all went wrong ended up bad. The hero after all he went through, taking up all the challenges wins, but never gets his prize.

I dreamt of her, I saw her walking; I wanted…I ran to her, but I never could reach her, she looked back smiled…and I never could

         She haunts me, she kills me, only I want her, she is the embodiment of eternity.

             08” The Distress Call

I listened to her message thousands of times, I wanted to help her.

In the Void I saw her again, she called me by my name: ,, My soldier J.D. come to me..”, told me that she loved me..

I stud right next to her, I felt her voice, her touches vibrating in my heart

            I went  through hell and back, only to find out that she died.

  I followed a chimera all this time, I followed her…she was so real….she was alive.

        I dropped to my knees, I started asking myself:,, Am I crazy? “,, Where is She? “ I was alone this whole time, but it can’t be, she was here with me, that beautiful girl, her calm voice, her sweet voice….

“You truly live only when you found your soul mate”

Demeter Szilard

Lost I am without them

Understanding not much,

not even the obvious.

Seeking a meaning

dream away my thoughts

wishing this and wishing that…..

Someday it’s all gona end.

Wake up in a late dawn,

young but ageing,

life is wasting resources and love,

moments of pure one to one talk.

Missing out on episodes

I breathe in deep.

not fully comprehending how bitter is the path.

Where is my happy ending?

Where are they?

They all left…

I miss this part of my life

I miss everything need help,

why I am trying to do things in a right way?

I always lose something, I have lost her

and her and another her.

Lost I am without them.

Day by day

Limitless skies open your eyes,

blue above…beautiful is life.

I love you the way you are,

like your smile,

like your voice,it’s my guide line

can I see you one more time?

Talk to you,speak words of love,

spread senseless teardrops.

Listen again,hold your hand

just one more time in 2010.

Feeling that life vibe in me

when you are around.

Feeling alive, touched by a pure thought.

She may be the one to be loved,

or never again will I seek a moment of luck.

Being with her is like being loved,

She likes the things I love,

She loves the things I like,

I love her every second,

more and more day by day.

Teatru localizat and Localized Theatre eng.vers.

Teatru localizat

Si acuma cand ceasul bate in al ultimului minut,

infrant si lovit,cazut si ranit….

Ma acuzi? Ma judeci prin acele gesture,reci si grele

chiar crezi ca vreau sa am de-a face cu ele?!?

Dar pentru tine,orce ,fie si moartea,

doar dovedeste-mi loialitatea ta.

Arata ca poti  simtii pentru mine

acea dragoste nemaivazuta de lume,

arata ca poti sa treci peste mimica umana

ca poti sa vezi prin masa sociala

ma vezi asa cum ar trebui?

sau judeci dupa reguli nescrise.

Alaturi de celalalte mici printese ascunse nerecunoscatoare?

Jocul tulbure al vremurilor noastre

Aruncam cu zaruri nimerim trei,noua,sapte

Ar fi multe de spus doar toate…

sunt doar cuvinte doar interferente pentru tine

Si uite acuma in 2010 cu cat ma apropii

cu atat ma urasti mai mult si nu trece

de-asi crede ca suntem nepereche.

Localized Theatre

And now when the watch is ticking in his last minut,

defeated struck down,fallen and hurt

you accuse me?judge me by those gestures,cold and heavy...

Do you really think ,that I want to have something to do with them?

But for you,anything, even if it is death.

Just prove me your loyalty.

show me that you can feel for me

that love unseen by the world.

Show that you can walk by the human mimic

Show that you see pass the social mass..

You see me as you should?

Or you’re judging by the unwritten rules.

Amongst the other hidden ungrateful little princesses.

The troubled game of our times...

Throwing dices hitting three , nine ,seven

There are much to be said,but all

are just words interferences for you,

and now,here in 2010 as I approach you

You hate me greater and it will not pass

I would think that we are odd.

Taken by unsigned truce

Everything is relative

only we remain among the white noise, 

we struggled to find our twisted games,

live moments from the past,

listen to spoken words,

next steps will be made easily.

Now you got the taste,experienced the life,

from now on do you feel...how I did?

Do you ever cared about me?

Everything I feel.I feel for you,

now go to another level,you feel different?

Definitely yes,others have stolen your innocence,

charm soaked in human superficiality,

they are all illusionists.

Everything is drama, everything is theater,
being human means you hate me?

knowing me means that you love me? 

" and now the truth is revealed, why continue this charade,when we can execute in an obvious gesture" quote by J.D.Szilard

I want to enlist in the american army!!!IHooraah! Ace of spades and Memphis Dance

Ace of spades

Delightful touches of a dying empire

the lord of life metamorphosed and blind,

a carrier never seen,

forgotten perhaps.

Delivering indulgence to our hearts,

a skiddish thought,

taking with her a little part, of me of her,

uniting us, a new bread the Herrenrasse!

Memphis Dance

Slipping away from a predefined route

taking a chance you’re so rude,

I like walking my fingers in your hair

I dare to touch, to talk, feel free to hit me if you want,

make me smile make me feel alive,

Don’t be sad just be you.

And tell me the words that I want to hear.

Its all in my head,

in real life is never gonna happen,

I know that!, why must things be so complicated?

why all this mambo-jumbo crap?

I need a real hug a friend,

I need her to straighten my life,

she is my pulse my vibe.

She is the voice of reason inside my head.

Hidden from society

Closest way to her heart

Closest way to her heart

is that unknown path,

proved with years and trust.

Never-ending stream of sweet words,

romance and a little luck,

passion, loyalty and love.

Gently moves, whispers…

Telling her, she is the one.
The only being, to who I given my heart.