Let me guide you

Let me guide you

Let me guide you
I am right beside you.
Let your pain show itself
I’m here to help.
Let my voice take
 deep root s inside,
every whisper excites.
Every touch makes us want
more and more…
Come on baby, let’s show the world,
how to make love while doing war.

Every time we meet

Every time we meet

Every time we meet,

I  feel the need

to tell all my good deeds.

 To tell and watch, how you react,

to see you smile and laugh,

to feel you happy and sad,

to be right there and help.

Sitting on the swing,

or out boulevarding…

the most important thing

 that you are my right wing.

Each time  I tell,my heart is beating swell,

each moment together ,I wish for forever,

each second is a pleasure!!!

best of 2011 #1 Demons resistant to light

Crowds of people drag and pull

feelings out of their soul,

 buying guilt selling lies

creating walls of darkness.

No windows .no doors.

not even lather.

We fought battles and still fight   those demons resistant to light.

We create, we destroy ,not adapting to the worst

losing our touch ,we panic and run.

Repeating it over and over again

we are small  ,but we want more,

never in a frank mood always acting

playing puppets.

And we ask and beg g for forgivness.

best of 2011 Dreams of chance

Dreams of chance

Never mind those selfish dreams,

forget about what was  and what would be,

 there is no hope, there is no chance,

let things touch ,let things go.

They are souls and hearts finding their whole

miles away, from mine and yours.

I tried so hard, now is time to let things go

I did that. but they are coming back for more and more.

haunting me destroying my soul.

The End

Days tick and tock

like seconds on the clock.

Close by lurks the end of all,

just tick and tock goes the watch,

just like that we end up in a black fogg.

Aftermath

And endless stream of defying odds

retaking the bliss of the eternal law,

order is chaos, lies are our guilt,

 strongly embedded in what we are

we say we were.

Hopeless thoughts not ending at all ,

syncing to what we call the: aftermath of our…

Concept(ing) dreams

                     Si linistea se lasa peste noapte

Si linistea se lasa peste noapte,

in amurgul trezirilor timpurii,

apoi adorm din nou cu gandul la care se vor trezi.

Dar timpul nu iarta, 

timpul doar asterne  cenusa peste uitare,

acea vie senzatie va deveni  doar un alt obisnuit.

Nimic nu mai exista

Nimic nu mai exista din ce o  fost, nu va mai fi,

nimic din ce-am trait nu se va mai indeplini,

considera momentul unic, trateaza-l cu cuviinta,

fiecare  retraire isi pierde din importanta.

Deoarece suntem muritori. nu traim fiecare clipa.

cersim la pasii pe care ii facem, mila!

Regretam cea ce facem ,sau il trecem cu vederea

niciodata nu o fost asa dur umanitatea.

And there I stand, and stand and suffer

And there I stand, and stand and suffer,

painting my inner demons

welcoming them to their appearance.

Justify my motifs I can not,

Justify yours if you want!

Every choice is a decision,

affecting all those close

be careful use your wisdom,

 because you might lose them

"smile baby,smile .. all together they say goodbye "

there is no point of having an understanding level of a misunderstood situation

like I always said,the key of understaning one is to do an open heart surgery

 but I guess you realize that,and I'd like you to know

treat things seriously our*things I beg of you .

because here you got a boy who shows you the real feeling,who feels quilt 

 who tells you that you are worth a thousend pictures meaning 1.000.000 words.

who loves you.

Acceptance of the inevitable

Acceptance of the inevitable

confront it with fear

close your eyes, hold your breath,

the time has come God I am afraid.

Afraid of the pain that follows after

afraid of the unknown,

hopeless explications about the coming trauma…

I said many times before

involved in other procedures:

My life gets stronger

and I get more self-confident

just for a couple of days.

Every time I am in this position

I wish you could be right next to me,

nothing could help me better

than hearing your voice of strength,

nothing can heal me faster

than your presence.

In this moment I realize

how much I need an angel on my side,

Ohh … how much I need you right now.

      To A.U.

safe and sound

Words fallen to the ground

I am not safe and sound,

rise and rise again

taste the freedom…

see through your cloudy vision

enjoy life’s treason.

Don’t speak, don’t talk,

let your move do all the work.

18 januar

si pierzandu-ma in amurgul diminetii
fara griji si fara ganduri,
stau in fata nasterii unei noua zile
si stiu ca il voi pierde,
nu ma simt atasat de nimic ce este viu
astept si astept minutele trec greu,
frigul il simt ma loveste in fata
creezi vapori de ceata,
parca astept ca soarta sa ma ajunga
dar nu o face o simt eu.

Sau am sa te pierd

Dar razboiul asta eu mi l-am ales ,asta imi e soarta,

departe de tine …simt cum imi pierd spreranta.

Inima mea o ia razna,

pompeaza adrenalina dar bate mai incet,

cad prada emotiilor ,cu ele adorm,

cu ele mai trezesc,

cu gandul la tine eu visez,

lucruri marunte,marete ,de neinteles!

Dar realitatea ma loveste,

 cedez si iar cedez,

Oare o sa ma ridic vreodata?...

sau am sa te pierd.

Si mi-e dor de tine,

Mi-e dor de ce nu am avut,

Dorul ma cuprinde, ma baga in sperieti,

cu teama ma gandesc… oare…oare eu visez?

Raspunsul este rece si sincer.

Si eu pierd din viata anii

pe care nu o sa ii mai recuperez,

Cad in genunchi cad din nou

si la tine ma gandesc.

Oare voi reusi?

Sau am sa te pierd.!

13 things on new year's eve!

In life you must choose between honor and dignity ,and I choose both.

Never underestimate someone who doesn’t even know himself.

Yeah I had feelings now I have something in plus humanity.

Silly is my position towards my own conception.

You trust somebody? Never do that you always get hurt.

Discipline is achieved through brutality.

There is no dignity in being in love.

 Make it through hell ,and you can call yourself a true hero.

Almost everyone deserves a chance, and they always mess things up in the last fucking

moment.

Well I guess life is life and that is how it’s going to be.

The truth   is I really loved her and she known that.

Where I failed others will succeed.

Changing myself I am changing the world.

To all my friends

To all my friends

In the last past days

I felt so strange,

I felt alone, and that scares me.

What is up ?what is wrong?

Were are my friends?!? they all are gone…

Really, I miss those old good times

how I want them one more time,

I miss some people miss them so much,

my heart is empty,

 I am feeling drained, battered up.

Were are those times

 we use to spend outside?

talking ,being together what’s up?

Some of those people

They… just continued there life’s

hundred of miles  apart of mine’s.

Always the distance,

there is always something in the mid part.

But I guess this is life:

 sometimes unfair,

sometimes rough.

Holidays are coming moments to enjoy

My only wish is to have you all

 close to me ,and all I want

is to say Happy Holidays,

God bless you all my dearest of friends,

 without you I am not myself at all.

I miss  those times when we used to laugh,

I miss those people who just left,

I miss those days of joy imperfect,

Hours, minutes, they were beautiful,

Oh how much I want to get together, and have a chat,

Smile, exchange news and laugh.

How much I want to have all of you around,

my old good friends, I miss you all so much.

This goes to those working abroad:

Zoltan,Danny,Andrei,Adina,Judith

take care you guys and at least once in a while,

let me now that you are fine,

let me now that your happy and smile,

I wish you all a white x-mas

merry moments and tasty treats,

and all the love and friendship that I can give.

Times is merciless, time ends fast,

treasure each moment you have,

 it could be your last.

The best way is to spend it with family and friends,

they are the most important gift you have. God bless.

by Demeter Szilard J.

City Angel

 Bring me down bring me up,

 take my closer to your heart,

 I wanted you to know

 that nothing is for show,

wanted to watch you smile again

walk your fingers in your pretty hair

 make me fall, make me stare,

 just stand there.

Your voice and  smile

 your way to be,is so sexy

 so feel free to realize

that such  beautiful things

 exists in real life,

 how you pronounce every word,

 when you smile when you joke

you’re so funny you’re so cute,

 when you walk your pretty leggs

 around that crowded place,

how you talk, how you socialize, how you are

how all the things you touch become something of valor

I like your lips,I like your dimples,

I like the way you are and who you are,

freedom bird of the new urban

you’re a city angel a lodestar.

Dedicated to Dr.M. Irina Ioana

White snow white snow

White snow ,white snow,

cold is your touch

bury my worm heart.

White snow, white snow,

keep up,bury us all alive.

White snow ,white snow,

you’re so white,

snow and snow and never stop!

"my empire of hearts and hatchets"

never say you did not know/`
and wait for that moment to come/`
and will never come /`
or will come too soon and take you by surprise


and than your sweet voice will die out
whispers will be stronger
and everything as we knew it will cease to exist
but only by throwing a symbol
you will come to understand

how easily can you give a moment to be
and you'll want that moment to last for years and years
but the anguish of pain, knowing when the void is almost near
almost close to that moment of peace
but you're young years pass,
you will sit next to your faithful companion named death

it will torment you for the rest of your life

and you can't change anything
and you want a moment to grasp the perfect sunrise

hate with indifference

"I always wanted the impossible because I never could handle the possible” Demeter Sz.

At least once in a life you must die for love

don’t be so selfish share It with me ,

don’t so cruel ,don’t make me change,

you learned my defined concept

 accepted applied the human principles.

Now I fear you might rebel,

 against my wishes

 I tremble well beneath the passive indifference,

you treat as it was war

there is peace at your heart?

Leave the hate behind, glorious future awaits us

 we could fight our way through  this man made hell

 reliving the pain opening the blockage,

come lets’ pass

 and with small steps we create our destiny,

a world of ours at our judgment

and it will prevail, because we are human.

Stages and stages

underneath the calmness ,

strange behavior witnessing the passing

nothing can hurt,

yet still getting offended,

words enjoy a sweet melody upon hearing them.

Whit noise disguised as a way of touching

without experiencing the feel,

all of this meant to play tricks on our minds.

Refusing the granted

by human nature is a marker,

is our way taking everything for granted

leaving the essentials away ,

asking ,begging ,than crying the tears

whipping them  with white silk.

Words are useless you never could hear them,

I am talking to you why don’t you listen?

Frankly I known that we’d never be

I hopped I was mistaken,

 I wasn’t wrong you love something else

 beauty in essence.

 Tried tried I never succeeded

I invented the term planted poison,

 must I fail again and again

or I am winning? whatever the outcome

 its about self-preservation,

 would you forget me? yes why not,

would forgive me?

 the answer is right in front,

I hate you with love,

I ignore you with attention

 all of this means I am human.

Understanding me you understand yourself

 we fight battles that cannot be won,

our goals in life differ

 but the passion to live our life are the same in each one,

now or never I ask you to step up

make up your mind

or you  will forever lose the man

 who truly loves you the way you are.

     

“I always wanted the impossible because I never could handle the possible” Demeter Sz.

Our life

Our life’s are  a drama

 lived in a bitter sweet song lyrics

we each fight our own battles,

never could negotiate a cease fire.

Planning escapes,

getting shouted at ,headaches…

we do everything

they don’t even thanks us

that’s great.

Instead they play us ,in one hand all in,

losing to them we feel hopeless,

the same two humanists

following a righteous cause,

one loves the other

more than she could count on,

ripped our we from a straight path,

nevertheless we have common thoughts

you somehow complete me,

why shouldn’t I too?

Enemies united,

could you stand near me?

for a last stand.

they attack at dusk,

you burry me at dawn.

Before all shall parish, all shall fall,

I want you to pledge allegiance to our song,

only we could hear it ,only we can stop it,

come my dear sit next to me

before you forever go,

to look one more time in my eyes,

these are not easy moments,

I feel your heart tremble,

but the departure is never simple.

Just go my dear with those smiling eyes,

leave the tears for another time

beautiful moments still awaits us,

now go…

Start pulling me out

Start pulling me out ,at the edge of the box,

 A small  burst of wind drops me right down,

At least you stop once in a while near that box,

Talk to me light me up ,

let me scream understand my misery

submit my voce to a highter plan of superficiality

My life’s a demo who decides when I put it out?

 Without you I am not mine

You are my dot in my sentences

 the starting capital word imagine,

 Trapped in a tiny box the air is thinner

 I  get out punching and hitting

 hurting and bleeding understand my misery

  come here save me

 spending my time discussing a locked topic

whatever the cost I am stuck

 thousand of  voices going insane

Only I can hear them

Closer to the breakpoint

painting my freedom something’s

 wrong it’s a grey picture

Standing on a wire rotating the wisdom

 of a fallen 24,7 outta 7

Shouting while spinning

a record made by silence

 playing a role cruel world all alone  in a 2 by 4

 staring  and dreaming

why don’t you listen

 I am friggin bleeding

hit me one more time

do yourself a favor rewind the tape pause play broken.

Let's play a new era

Come back let’s play a new era

let’s see could we survive,

move along on waves

you maintain me on balance,

shatter ourselves like a mirror  broken in pieces,

we reflect our love in optical illusions.

Travel million light-years ,follow the tail of a comet

we burst in colors, being the wish granters, happiest as ever,

you are my steer my brake,

 you make me accelerate,

you  make me different,

 you make me brave,

 the world seems a better place

with you in it.

If I’d kiss you,

I’d miss the taste of you lips

I’d miss your heartbeat

I miss you all day,

but what defines us ,makes up hate.

Couldn’t u said no more wait?

 instead you make me suffer. stabbing me ,enjoying  the taste?

flavor of red hot liquid bursting sideways

step and step,  with each of them crumble my soul,

with each word hurt me  more and more,

till I wont be anymore.

I forgive you  I always do,

because I love you it’s not your fault,

it’s mine I am so sorry

but this emptiness  in my soul is getting to big,

I am waiting the moment when it will explode,

 waiting the touch that  would leave me breathless,

leaves me to choke .

and I reprogram myself to hate hate hate

and destroy, to exile from the world.

If only you knew how much … you cause me

 never mind I understand you

 I really do.

Go find someone great, leave me behind

leave me to root,

 I express myself differently

but my love for you  is genuine, not fake.

I am loyal to the end

a big,a big  tragic mistake ,go find someone awesome and great.

Every night I come home

I fall  on my knees

 staring at the oblivion ,

in freezing  cold I see my breath

I exhale the substance of life,

 ohh how much I want but I cant ,

wonderful is silence

expressed by the breath you take,

the only sound  of true greatness

 hearing and feeling your heart keeping you alive,

 experienced in freezing  cold

the hearts beats lesser and lesser

 slower and slower till you say goodbye ,goodbye…

 I hate you with love.