never say you did not know/`
and wait for that moment to come/`
and will never come /`
or will come too soon and take you by surprise


and than your sweet voice will die out
whispers will be stronger
and everything as we knew it will cease to exist
but only by throwing a symbol
you will come to understand

how easily can you give a moment to be
and you'll want that moment to last for years and years
but the anguish of pain, knowing when the void is almost near
almost close to that moment of peace
but you're young years pass,
you will sit next to your faithful companion named death

it will torment you for the rest of your life

and you can't change anything
and you want a moment to grasp the perfect sunrise

hate with indifference

"I always wanted the impossible because I never could handle the possible” Demeter Sz.

At least once in a life you must die for love

don’t be so selfish share It with me ,

don’t so cruel ,don’t make me change,

you learned my defined concept

 accepted applied the human principles.

Now I fear you might rebel,

 against my wishes

 I tremble well beneath the passive indifference,

you treat as it was war

there is peace at your heart?

Leave the hate behind, glorious future awaits us

 we could fight our way through  this man made hell

 reliving the pain opening the blockage,

come lets’ pass

 and with small steps we create our destiny,

a world of ours at our judgment

and it will prevail, because we are human.

Stages and stages

underneath the calmness ,

strange behavior witnessing the passing

nothing can hurt,

yet still getting offended,

words enjoy a sweet melody upon hearing them.

Whit noise disguised as a way of touching

without experiencing the feel,

all of this meant to play tricks on our minds.

Refusing the granted

by human nature is a marker,

is our way taking everything for granted

leaving the essentials away ,

asking ,begging ,than crying the tears

whipping them  with white silk.

Words are useless you never could hear them,

I am talking to you why don’t you listen?

Frankly I known that we’d never be

I hopped I was mistaken,

 I wasn’t wrong you love something else

 beauty in essence.

 Tried tried I never succeeded

I invented the term planted poison,

 must I fail again and again

or I am winning? whatever the outcome

 its about self-preservation,

 would you forget me? yes why not,

would forgive me?

 the answer is right in front,

I hate you with love,

I ignore you with attention

 all of this means I am human.

Understanding me you understand yourself

 we fight battles that cannot be won,

our goals in life differ

 but the passion to live our life are the same in each one,

now or never I ask you to step up

make up your mind

or you  will forever lose the man

 who truly loves you the way you are.

     

“I always wanted the impossible because I never could handle the possible” Demeter Sz.

Our life

Our life’s are  a drama

 lived in a bitter sweet song lyrics

we each fight our own battles,

never could negotiate a cease fire.

Planning escapes,

getting shouted at ,headaches…

we do everything

they don’t even thanks us

that’s great.

Instead they play us ,in one hand all in,

losing to them we feel hopeless,

the same two humanists

following a righteous cause,

one loves the other

more than she could count on,

ripped our we from a straight path,

nevertheless we have common thoughts

you somehow complete me,

why shouldn’t I too?

Enemies united,

could you stand near me?

for a last stand.

they attack at dusk,

you burry me at dawn.

Before all shall parish, all shall fall,

I want you to pledge allegiance to our song,

only we could hear it ,only we can stop it,

come my dear sit next to me

before you forever go,

to look one more time in my eyes,

these are not easy moments,

I feel your heart tremble,

but the departure is never simple.

Just go my dear with those smiling eyes,

leave the tears for another time

beautiful moments still awaits us,

now go…

Start pulling me out

Start pulling me out ,at the edge of the box,

 A small  burst of wind drops me right down,

At least you stop once in a while near that box,

Talk to me light me up ,

let me scream understand my misery

submit my voce to a highter plan of superficiality

My life’s a demo who decides when I put it out?

 Without you I am not mine

You are my dot in my sentences

 the starting capital word imagine,

 Trapped in a tiny box the air is thinner

 I  get out punching and hitting

 hurting and bleeding understand my misery

  come here save me

 spending my time discussing a locked topic

whatever the cost I am stuck

 thousand of  voices going insane

Only I can hear them

Closer to the breakpoint

painting my freedom something’s

 wrong it’s a grey picture

Standing on a wire rotating the wisdom

 of a fallen 24,7 outta 7

Shouting while spinning

a record made by silence

 playing a role cruel world all alone  in a 2 by 4

 staring  and dreaming

why don’t you listen

 I am friggin bleeding

hit me one more time

do yourself a favor rewind the tape pause play broken.

Let's play a new era

Come back let’s play a new era

let’s see could we survive,

move along on waves

you maintain me on balance,

shatter ourselves like a mirror  broken in pieces,

we reflect our love in optical illusions.

Travel million light-years ,follow the tail of a comet

we burst in colors, being the wish granters, happiest as ever,

you are my steer my brake,

 you make me accelerate,

you  make me different,

 you make me brave,

 the world seems a better place

with you in it.

If I’d kiss you,

I’d miss the taste of you lips

I’d miss your heartbeat

I miss you all day,

but what defines us ,makes up hate.

Couldn’t u said no more wait?

 instead you make me suffer. stabbing me ,enjoying  the taste?

flavor of red hot liquid bursting sideways

step and step,  with each of them crumble my soul,

with each word hurt me  more and more,

till I wont be anymore.

I forgive you  I always do,

because I love you it’s not your fault,

it’s mine I am so sorry

but this emptiness  in my soul is getting to big,

I am waiting the moment when it will explode,

 waiting the touch that  would leave me breathless,

leaves me to choke .

and I reprogram myself to hate hate hate

and destroy, to exile from the world.

If only you knew how much … you cause me

 never mind I understand you

 I really do.

Go find someone great, leave me behind

leave me to root,

 I express myself differently

but my love for you  is genuine, not fake.

I am loyal to the end

a big,a big  tragic mistake ,go find someone awesome and great.

Every night I come home

I fall  on my knees

 staring at the oblivion ,

in freezing  cold I see my breath

I exhale the substance of life,

 ohh how much I want but I cant ,

wonderful is silence

expressed by the breath you take,

the only sound  of true greatness

 hearing and feeling your heart keeping you alive,

 experienced in freezing  cold

the hearts beats lesser and lesser

 slower and slower till you say goodbye ,goodbye…

 I hate you with love.