What’s our purpose?

Today I stud in front of the porch,

all kinda thoughts, made me feel  unsecure.

Where is the world heading now?

I don’t want to be a part of it.

What’s our purpose?,  of being here,

To be alive? Well, we all pretty much act dead!

To be human? We are experts on that.

We don’t give a crap.

To find our mates?(loved ones)surely that’s a joke,

we cheat each-other in any given occasion(time).

I’m The Bad Guy?

FOR TELLING THE TRUTH?

My dreams slowly fade away…

as like  my place in the upcoming future,

“I like modesty. It’s our basic virtue,

a virtue of courage, in a world sooo dark blue.” My own  quote

People they don’t want to know,

when you buy a new firm shoe.

I don’t like crowded places,

because I’m unsure,

they all got something with me,

It’s like strange…spooky.

I try to evade, using a self defense technique,

blend in with a few.

People are funny, and I am too,

I have self-respect, I have dignity!

They try to make me,

join the other side,

keep telling them, if I lose what I’ve got,

then I am dead.

All those fancy girls, and gangster boys,

with their high-maintenance romance.

I’m excluded, why?

Because I have principles!

I am not false, just plane natural.

Kids aged 18 driving a BMW 7 series,

me with my 2 seated toy wagon, one man power,

kinda feeling like the big boys do*.

Parking it, on one square feet..I’m screwed.

I’m sorry, that I am not perfect!

Sorry if my car is not yet produced!

Sorry if my family isn’t perfect!

I am sorry for everything that might cause harm.

Like  I said, did nothing right in two decades,

feeling kind unworthy to be living…

Where are my 15 minutes of glory?

Where is my change to prove-myself….

That I’m just a man who wants

To  be your friend. 

Portret of all,that's me

Read all about DEMI:

Best of luck

keeping up,

never a way out,

stuck in this mud.

Saved by the bell?

I say!

who am I?

I really proved that,

did nothing right,

not even third place

never taking it seriously,

damned if I'd be

I see...I realize,

where is that impulse

that I need?

I must change,change msyelf

I wanna be...

never mind...

I had my change,

it wasn't fare

this is life,

I must somehow survive.

Every walk in the public zone,

at the mercy of all who saw,

seeing me walk

they talk.

I listen,I know

and can guess precisely.

Oh God...

what a difficult child I must be!

Noble thought helping out,

why nobody helps me now?

"Keep up kid,your dead

not in trend,

never got the sts of a friend"

what did I do wrong???

I messed up ,I'm messed up

a hybrid!, cruel luck

dreaming of......

expensive movement

better of.

I think,I learn,no'ones concerned?

so I'm alone,no surprise!

I'm sincere

I always was,

in need of a joint heart

a warm hugg,

listen please...

it's that so hard,

asking patience,understanding

but no!!!

All of you judge,

if you were in my place?....

did u ever thought...

this kid is ripping himself appart!

why? it easy

trying to please...

all of you..it's tough!

exspecially

when you are alone,

nobody's coming in your rescue,

homie!

I wanna be different,

walking around with friends

I meant..

but now for me is sf.

the end.

I'm being paranoid,

I need a prescription drug

Vallium's great,

taking me in Alice's place

heck...I might be able to sit up straight!

but no it's a mistake!

here you sue a whore

for not giving it down

after she ate.

Walking in the reflector's light?

hey producer!!

that ain't right.

I opened your eyes?

great job

stilish cover-up

end now what?

Where is the love?

just hate...?

I often contemplate,

why should others be so damn great

as I said it's hard for me,

even to walk out,

than I'm always polite

nice to people

and they think that I'm their slave?

wtf????!!

always helping 

offering my soul

they say.... 

my heart is worth not much

equivalent with a kilo of dust

they say I'm stupid,dunce

a weird kid,because I have...

compassion!?

I'm a man, not a child!

they are crazy!

probably.

care to judge me?

Time is running out

hiting soon twenty,

life is ending

what did I done in 

two decades?

you tell me!

God!I .... you

get over those.

My friends...

are they any??

they are acting actors,on a thin stage

thinking...

"O my God,I'm sooo great

the world gravitates around me

I am educated in street

Ima like gansta

mami where are my jujubeams?"

nice perspective slick.

Maybe they are wankstas

the only thing gravitating around them,

is their hands in their crouch

they are men?Hot damn!

Kids with big mouths...

but get to the point:

I always shown 

a great interest for you,

not interesed in me?

please...

you want cl klasz?-& George Clooney?

I'm sorry!

I don't got a huge pocket 

full of money,

I can't offer you much

only my heart,

my full attention and

best wishes of luck.

I am not one of those

high class trendy

man-whores( =)) )

who can amaze you

with their false words,

I'm not gansta, nor a star

I'm just a boy

who likes you more,

but ur cold!,

you want someone else?

the best of the best

okay

I got it.I alywas got it

I'm not like the rest.

Forgive me...

you won,now your happy?

you'd better be

I would never be...

God,you did more damage

to me

than an I.E.D.

I'm downright depressive.

Maybe a little Vallium

with a shot of wkisky,

or something more cheap

like homemade moonshine

and a copuld of sleeping pills...

I dream of you,

you dream of me?

of course not,

for you and for all

I'm nothing more than

a surpluss.

It took me,more then 2hours

wrote it on my cell

it's 2 a.m.

you'd better say something

or else I go crazy,

c'mon,it's not that hard

at least fake it,

show that you care

please...?

She knows that this is for her

have a great week!

show them no mercy.

A couple of stubborn kids

never stopped you,

they never did.