Nevertheless meaningless

After all, time bents,
slides wishes of fortune
nevertheless meaningless,
you dare to stand alone,
when wawes shatter the shore.
Like a castle of cards
you perish at the slightest touch,
beneath is nothing more
than that awesome silence,
constantly reminds me
how I dared to dream you!

I am a seeker,
searching my whole life,
I want to escape...
everyday is a struggle to maintain
this superficial act of survival,
seeing something that I like
but knowing that I can't have it,
boneshattering,heartbreaking...
you dare to judge me?
if you only knew..
what battles I fight with myself, in my head,
if only for a day,you take my place
you would end up bezerk,lost insane!